another day

Well I finally managed to add a picture to my profile on here. I decided to do a picture of some Graffiti with my name rather than a picture of me. Not quite sure why, I am still trying to decided on my reasons for even doing all this in the first place. I recall a friend of mine - the first person who ever told me they had a blog in fact, did so just for themselves. When I asked for the url, she simply said she declined saying it was a private thing. I thought it strange and still do actually but think I am starting to understand it better now. It was for her a journal of sorts. I mainly want to do this to get in the habit of writing regularly again. I think it would be neat to have both a very personal anonymous blog and a public blog. Thinking realistically I am finding it difficult to maintain even this one. I suppose I do like the idea of others reading this in either case. However I don't know how realistic it is that anyone else will find this in the vast ocean of much better and more established blogs. For now I think I will continue to write these, operating under the assumption that someone might eventually find and read these. For now I am going to stay somewhat annoymous, I have used my real name. There are many men named Nick in Ottawa many of whom work for the government. At times I might want to post something controversial or provactive, although I haven't so far. So far I guess this has been an excercise of "thinking out loud" in written text. I am not sure if its doing me or anyone else any good but for now I plan to keep doing it.